The Ocean Knows

(c) The Integration Project

Again I have been depleted.

Emptied and poured out.

Left in my wilderness

alone and defeated.

What is this leaving

and going away from me?

Alone again with my thoughts

and silent grieving.

Thoughts that tell a lie

of worth and value.

They cut me from the inside,

and skills don’t satisfy.

Be mindful and breathe,

Be present and grieve,

Lies that deceive.

All of them thieves.

They have stolen my hope

That had started to grow.

I now have a noose

Hanging from a rope.

Bright and shiny mornings

become dark and grey.

The light I glimpsed is

darkened with mourning.

You will find me by the sea

Wild and crashing with fury.

It alone understands me

and what lives inside.